This is one of the major themes that I’ve been trying to explore in my novel Florid Eyes.
I know it sounds cliche, but to love means to open up our hearts to potential of heartaches. Some people try to minimize heartaches by playing safe, by settling, or by building a fort around themselves.
Prior to the events of Florid Eyes, Violet was just one of those who dreaded vulnerability, but deep down she craved love, or anything the remotely resembled love. She has a conflicting personality that she is adventurous and daring for things in general, but when it comes to the matters of the heart, she fears rejection more than anything.
Josh knows more than anyone that love means weakness because that’s the rule of thumb in the vampire world. The more ruthless you are as a vampire, the more powerful you become. He too, tried to fight his feelings for Violet, but once he realizes Violet is the person he has been waiting for, he just can’t walk away. He knows she is worth it. Simple as that.
I think Violet is the one risking more in this relationship. She has less life experience and more at stake. She has a life that she has worked very hard to build. Josh challenges her values and beliefs. A responsible good girl from head to toe, it is hard for her to accept that sometimes rules have to be broken to achieve the greater goods, but she follows her heart and takes the risks anyway. She didn’t do it only for Josh, also for what she believe is right. That makes me love her so much more. Once she takes the leap of faith, she’s all in, but she never loses herself, not even when she was under compulsion. By the end of the story, she really has become a better person, more optimistic, more secure and more mature.
Love made her weaker at first, but stronger in the end. I envy her.