The year 2013 was an extraordinary year filled with ups and downs. I experienced more emotions than I could find words to describe. It didn’t pan out like I had wished at all, but it has opened my eyes and taken me to unexpected places. Even though it was a year dotted with rejections, it was a year of self-discovery and self-growth. It was definitely one of the best years of my life.
I challenged myself to be strong and face many of my past fears like driving, birds, being unloved by others, not living up to societal expectations, rejections, etc. I overcame these fears by believing in myself even when no one did. When I fell, I cried then dusted myself off and tried again.
I remember last year I made a new year resolution to follow my own heart and to pursue happiness, rather than money or status. Some people think this idealistic approach has made me stubborn and has caused me some unnecessary pain, but at the end of the day, I’m glad I did. Looking back, the tears and disappointments were worth it.
This year I’m gonna to embark on a path of certainties. Even though the unknown makes me feel vulnerable and could set me up for failures, I’m determined to embrace it. Damn it, I’ll even embrace vulnerability. I’m tried of pretending I’m strong 100% of the time. Real strength is not about hiding your weaknesses. Real strength is the ability to rebuild your life after it has been torn into pieces.
So, this is my new year resolution for 2014: Take risks. Believe in myself. Don’t be afraid of being weak.