What will I do if I can’t graduate

Someone asked me today what I would do if I couldn’t graduate (on time). I misunderstood the question and assumed she meant what if I couldn’t graduate at all. I answered in a heartbeat, “I’d kill myself.”

That is a very honest answer. I’m giving up my career, my youth, my time with my family, my entire savings and my prospect of ever becoming a trophy wife 🙂 to travel across the world do a PhD. I’m giving all these up because none of them are as important as being able to call myself a doctor.

I hope my PhD will lead me to better things and the life I want, but I’m very aware of my limits, and I’m not setting ridiculous goals for myself to be the next research superstar. The least I have to do is to graduate. I know it sounds harsh and tiger mom like, but I do think if I dropped out or got kicked out, that would mean I’ve failed my life.

I may be poor, old, lonely and unemployed after I graduate, but as least I’ve a legitimate degree to be proud of.


About Nicky

Nicky English is a journalist, an educator, a podcaster, a couch potato, a dreamer, and a child at heart. Learning is her passion, so is the English language, which she believes is the tool to unlock the door of knowledge. Born in Hong Kong, she received intensive writing training at The University of Iowa, where she double-majored in journalism and political science. Apart from the Hawkeye State, she’s lived in Chicago and Philadelphia. When she was a guest student at Georgetown University, she fell in love with Washington, D.C. She also has a Master of Arts in Communication. A little side note—she cannot imagine a world without her Mac and iDevices. Like many crazy ones, she hopes to change the world one day at a time.
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